Can't believe the time has come and I'm lying in the hospital bed waiting for Judah to arrive. It seems so surreal that he'll be here some time tomorrow. It's been a long journey but we are grateful and abundantly blessed to have the opportunity to be parents to another little person!
It might seem strange but I don't exactly feel excited or nervous. I've been praying that the Lord would calm my emotions and any worries or fears that I might have and so far it seems like He is answering those prayers! I know the challenges we faces and all the unknowns could be overwhelming but my God is bigger! He is greater!
I got to the Hospital around 8:30p and by 10:30p things seemed to be in motion. They started me on my first round of meds. Instead of doing the cervical medicine and pitocin right away I'm just doing the cervical medicine and seeing how it goes. I'll get that every 4 hours until I hit a certain point and then I could start on pitocin or I might just be going good on my own with no need to do the pitocin.
Pretty much as soon as we got to our room tonight a Doctor from the NICU came over. Again she went over the plan... they are good about that here. It was actually kinda cool because she wasn't called over but she knew we were coming in tonight and when she saw our names come across the screen she came straight over. It's cool to know that they are prepared and are fully familiar with our case before we ever come in.
The Plan (according to the Doctors with commentary from yours truly ha.):
I plan to deliver vaginally which is called a "natural delivery" - I don't use that term because lots of people think that "natural delivery" means without any medications but it actually just means vaginal delivery. I do plan on having an epidural and honestly wouldn't think about not having one lol. I don't want to experience the curse! I want to enjoy delivery! I had a fabulous labor and delivery with London and I owe that to the epi :)
After delivery we hope that Judah is crying and breathing on his own! That would make things a lot better and also make it so that things aren't so crazy. If he isn't they will have to do a breathing tube right away to help him. There will be a large group of doctors and nurses in the room at the time of delivery and once they get him stable and see how he is adjusting to life outside the womb I will hopefully get to see him (He will be in my delivery room during this time). After that they will take him over to the NICU where he will be "packaged up" for Children's Hospital transport team. While he is in the UC NICU he will have 2 IV lines put in his belly button. One that will be giving him fluid, nutrients and a medicine to keep a valve open in his heart and another that will monitor his blood pressure. Once he is ready for transport they will bring him back to my room so I can see him before they transport him to Children's. Josh and I will hopefully be facetiming the whole time so I can feel apart of everything. It's been very difficult thinking about not being able to see him or know what is happening and it just dawned on me the other day that we could facetime so I can see everything just like Josh is! It was a God thought!! I asked the NICU Doctor and she said she thought that would be fine but she couldn't speak for Children's Hospital. Hopefully we don't get any resistance in this area because it has given me a lot of joy. Once he gets to Children's they will run lots of tests on him and we will have a clear plan of action given to us at that time. Until then thats all we got.
The Plan (according to my faith):
I plan to deliver vaginally with the help of my epidural haha.
Judah will be breathing and screaming away just like every other baby! He will still be taken to the NICU and transported to Children's because they have to run tests to give him a clean bill of health and they would never take any chances by hesitating even if they thought he was healed (which they most likely wouldn't seeing as how you can see the heart without a scan). Once he gets to the CICU at Children's they will run all the necessary tests and be found HEALED.
Now, I would like to say that no matter what happens in the days to come we trust in the mighty hand of God! We know that God is in control even when things seem out of control! Faith is not for the faint of heart. It's standing in the face of impossibility and saying I TRUST GOD - I BELIEVE GOD IS ABLE and NO MATTER WHAT I will NOT back down! That doesn't mean everything is going to go our way because lets face it the bible doesn't say "my will be done" it says LORD Your will be done. God ALWAYS has the master plan and I don't have to understand that plan to trust it and the reason for that is simple... This life is not about me. We walk through life thinking it is but it's not! My life and all that I am has one purpose - To make HIM known! When you come to that kind of realization then it gives you a supernatural empowerment to face challenges and adversity with courage and strength because you know He is with you. Does my humanity shine through - of course! God made us with a wide range of emotions and Jesus said it best when he said "Keep watch and pray.... For the body is weak but the spirit is willing".
Anyway, I want to take this time to thank you all for praying and believing with us! It's meant the world to us and we can't express our gratefulness! We will do our best to keep you updated on everything because we know that so many of you are invested into Judah with endless praying and fasting! We couldn't be more grateful for all the encouragement and support you all have given us! Truly! Thank you so much!!
SIDE NOTE: It's taken me an hour to write this and during that time Judah is not liking the contractions. His heart rate has dropped several times and he dropped off completely on the monitor when my contraction were close together. If this continues they will do a c-section because they don't know if his heart can handle vaginal delivery. This would make a much harder recovery for me and also make it much longer for me to see Judah. PLEASE PRAY FOR HIS LITTLE HEART!!!!! Thanks everyone!!
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