Thankful

Today has been an interesting day.  I went to bed late last night (around 5am) and then woke up early.  Got up and went to get some pie for my grandma since she isn't eating much I thought she might like something sweet... since when she does eat thats all she wants.  I got to her house around 11am.  She didn't seem to be doing that great but her color looked good.  Hospice was there getting her vitals and talking with the family.  I got to spend some time with my amazing grandma.  Brushed her hair, braided it, washed her face, put lotion on it.  Then she asked me to do something with her eyebrows. LOL.  She said she wanted me to wax them.  Then she proceeded to tell me some things.  She wants her blue dress, she wants debbie to do her hair to make it look full BUT not to big, she wants me to make her look pretty but not artificial.  At first I just thought she was kind of rambling but then I realized she was telling me what she wanted for her funeral.  Even in a time when she is barely making it she cares about what she looks like.  I guess the apple doesn't fall to far from the tree. :)  I sat there and looked at her in amazement.  She really is such an incredible  woman! She spends what energy she has to talk about the lord and to tell people about Jesus.  I want to be like her! As my aunt Linda and I carefully brought out EVERY blue dress she had in her closet she carefully assessed each one until she found the one she wanted.  What must that feel like?  I can't imagine.  Thinking your time is running out and you want to make last minute arrangements.  She has lived a life that honors God and been a true example of selfless love.  Even though her beliefs are strong and unwavering she never judges people.  That is the mark of true faith.  The mark of a wise woman who knows the key to the gospel is rooted in love and forgiveness! I am so thankful for her.
I'm going over to her house in the next 15 minutes for the 12am-3am shift.  I love just being in her presence and since I know her time is coming to an end on earth then I want to soak up every second with her.  Then I get to thinking, WHY didn't I come here more often! Why didn't I spend more time with her! I only live a couple blocks from her... I could have come by every day just to talk with her. Just to make sure she wasn't lonely but I was "busy".  I had "things" to do that "couldn't" wait.  Now I'm regretful!  Don't wait to soak up time with your loved ones! You never know when life is going to come to an end.  Last night on the other side of town and 19 year old boy was murdered.  I bet his parents or his siblings never thought that was going to be his last day.  We aren't guaranteed tomorrow... or even today for that matter.  Be thankful for your loved ones and cherish your time with them.  Be quick to seek peace because no argument or disagreement is worth it!